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With cheating another, I have cheated myself
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mir i love you but you dont love me
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iloveyou
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| Don't stop, Get it, Get it. |
[16 Jun 2005|03:39am] |
Dear fuse,
Please stop playing the hawthorne heights "ohio is for lovers" music video. It's really really bad. And the editing of the lyrics," ___ my ___ and black my eyes" Aren't helping one little bit.
Thanks,
Managment
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| I'll be seeing you soon |
[31 Mar 2005|12:10am] |
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Goodbye Journal.
I have a new LJ.
Comment to find out the new one's name.
Bye.
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| It's Amanda Kapow. |
[29 Nov 2004|06:49pm] |
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This is Amanda posting in Miranda's journal. <3 I know you're going to hate me Mir but..
I LOVE YOU MIRANDA!
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-- We have hott sex. And she's going to have my babies.
I love you.
Love, Amanda Kapow ♥
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| Im sure you didn't mean too, but the fact is, you did... |
[15 Oct 2004|10:16am] |
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My greatest gift to you
Is a dance floor
Free from insecurity -alexisonfire duh
Ugh. phst.die.what the fuck.
i don't know why,but this hurts, it hurts bad, it's all so completly fucked up.. I dont want to have to look at that, but i saw it today layed out for me... I can tell you what it feels like to completly hate yourself
byebye <3
Todays Friday and I'm not working, so who's up for kill"?
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| Yeah.. Sure you will |
[30 Sep 2004|09:35pm] |
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fragile wings broken for the last time.. Could you ever imagine a pain so good?
And I hope that you can be happy by yourself cause i am not yours anymore-
ha i like the new green day... Does that make me a loser?.. probley.. "Yes Im mad.. Can you blame me"
uh i miss power.. i think my phone may be working but im not sure cause im at my dads office not at home but anyways the number is 564-9397 - Call me
you sound smarter when your not talking- dumbest thing i've ever said..
ronnys new girlfriend is so Rude.. just cause i was bad mouthing him right in front of her does not give her a right to walk away.. Kthnxdie
::Amanda ! Oct.9! )come down on the 8th (stay the night at my new house with me?/) cuz were crashing homecoming..=)
I miss him... he makes me happy..
yeah so im gona go now.. bye =)
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| And you scream.. "Oh god.. Why me" |
[23 Sep 2004|02:57pm] |
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Ha Ha i've got homecoming dates.. But Am i Going.. I duno.. (kapow is Oct.9) =) hmm well No school tommrow or monday.. Thanks Hurricane. now i geta lose more days out my christmas vacation.. Bitch!~ So today. im math class this girl and I were talking.. and shes cool.. she was crying cause of this guy she dated and broke up with or something.. and i knew the guy.. and i said he was an "asshole" SO She took her pen and stabbed me 5 times in the Arm. and There is ink and blood and it looks digusting.. So me being the nice person that am. Punched her.. like 3 times and took my pen and stabed her right back.. ha and the whole class went silent.. it was really werid and complety random. .i really unexpected it, It hurt like a bitch.. um so last night,, was terrible. my cat . kitty ran away and no one can find her. and i was really sad.. And lonley.. so i kinda yea.. Anyways! _ TOday The Gay ron.. tells me he heard I had sex with Aj.,. what a bunch of bullshit.. hes retarded.. he dosent know what the hell hes talking about and i hope he gets his ass kicked.. Hmm.. So preston lent me his phone.. I duno why,, but it was a really nice/cool/wonderful thing to do.. so yay!~ (call me after 9) 360-6281... haha hes great.. I duno im werid. .. its cool that were so close even after we broke up So.... hey! ..Loserface/meanie head... i wana talk to u.. =) please?
ha yes well i've gota go to work! All hale chick-fil-a! jk
I wish i was drunk............ <3
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| You were the worst thing that ever happened to me |
[22 Sep 2004|09:37am] |
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well... uhhhg
after all that we've had.. i love how you still manage to find ways to make me cry..
ifeel unimportant.. and not so much used.. but i duno.. im hurt.. But I dont really have a reason to be
i mean.. if It was suppose to happen.. Then it would happen? Right?
And the drama keeps on coming..
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| Nothing means anything anymore |
[21 Sep 2004|01:08pm] |
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Happiness Isnt Going to jump out of the bushes and say HEY! im happiness! SMILE! =)
Ughh Last night was fun.. i love the rain.. Afterwards me an becki got stoned.. wee and we woke up late this morning
I feel like shit... i heard shit today and it kinda made me sad...
i got asked out today HA.. =/
but i dont even care..
I feel like nothing!
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| Your so Stupid |
[19 Sep 2004|07:09pm] |
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Okay .. As Someof you may or may not know.. I FUCKED UP!.. HELL i fucked up big time!!! I Did something dumb and YES i regret it. And YES i would take it back if I could.. but its just not that simple
I've ruined something.. that was mostly likely going to be something amazing and am i sorry.. yes and do i want a second chance more than anything do i deserve one?? well thats up to him..
but i know that i've hurt him and i'd do anything to gain his trust back.. and i dont care how long it takes.. i wish there was a way to prove that to him..
hes the kinda person that makes u want to be honest about everything and i cant belive i did that.. but No more lies.. So here's the truth
Ron an I kissed while he was dating kitty.. UGH! But do i like him.. no.. and do i love kitty.. Yes
Preston an I are done. and Im not gona try to make him feel better about it.. no matter how bad it hurts
Devin.. ugh me an devin was a MISTAKE .. it ment nothing,, and i hate myself for doing that..
and yeah.. I really am sorry, I like you so much.. I hope. that.. we can still ... i duno? I cant expalin me doing what i did.. but i hope u can forgive me.. i never ment for it to happen.. i never ment to hurt you at all.. and i hope you beleive me
-mir
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[14 Sep 2004|08:49pm] |
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hes cute, funny, wonderful and amazing,. and your smart ass self.. ruined it again
Im never going to wake up again
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| I like you better on your knees.. |
[11 Sep 2004|09:45pm] |
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Today WAs Fucking Gay, i got the cops called on me. For no good reason, and they are fucking gay. let me tell u.. And So are old ppl.. they do the dumbest shit i've ever heard of... yes, I went to work.. Happy.. it was cool seeing everyone.. michael (a guy i work with )an I are werid cuz . .well i guess he likes me.. but he says he couldnt date me. cuz i flirt to much? do not,, and kenny gave me a hug! and i ate lunch with trisha.. She dont hate me anymore.and i gota hang out with ashley and we ate food.. and um shes so cool. i miss her. and ronny owes me ice cream.. with sprinkles.. ummhm and i dont think were fighting anymore.. oh an him an kitty are dating.. =) which is cool. cuz kitty is amazing.. then yea i wanted to go to beckis. but noo .. my dads making me stay here.. Gay kthnxdie and yeah then i got online. and talked to aj.. for a bit.. he sucks at goodbyes.. im far more better and we both know it then i talked to rel, mike, betsey and well i think everything is peachy once again! and i saw matt an joe tonight.. its been forever since i saw them.. and unfortunaly davids still alive. but oh well i could care less .. oh and i got some cool new undies!! haha that would rock christan school buses.. wana see? too bad
coke is better than pepsi..
im in a better mood than usual. but im still kinda sad. im sick of being alone.. it sucks! but oh well one day.. i wont be.. well hopefully
off to bed.. here i go! whats gona happen tommrow! i dont know -loser
( It's for your own good.. )
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| I'm okay.. |
[10 Sep 2004|04:26am] |
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ok so i know i write in here to much, im going to stop.. for a few weeks..i dont know..its 4:08 and i cant sleep.. Also these pics. was just to cool not to post.. kthnx (left a message for u amanda)
( used to be the reason i breathed.. )
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[10 Sep 2004|12:26am] |
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ask me 6 questions.. about anything.. dosent matter what. and ill awnser truthfully?
okay Anways im bored/mad/sad im talking to audrey, ha i love her shes so dank,, ha dank. i hate that word anywho no kapow for me.. umm
Why do you set yourself up? when you know your just gona be let down..
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